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Friday, July 4, 2008 extremely depressed should i see a doctor, i think i'm suffering from depression. even typing this entry now gives me pangs of despondency. it's been a struggle since the beginning of june, how i witness negativities pile up insanely and so rapidly that I begin to question my strength to make it through whatever that comes. i know i sound like a wuss but i experienced moodswings and panic attacks every now and then, it's getting so out of hand that i would withdraw myself from the usual crowd and start lamenting on my own. it's so sad la. I'm so sad. then school work come pouring down like crazy eating up my inhibition against mental wreckage. every little thing that I do, or people do, I took it now not by a pinch of salt. I start to question people's sincerity and my own judgment. it sucks to be alone, knowing that everyone out there is having balls of fun with each other. i hallucinate alot. i started to imagine myself out of this lonesome predicament, seeking solace in the inner peace within. i write alot in my book journal, but only of all the wreckage that i've caused to myself. maybe it's a good thing that I vent, but positivity seems so bleak at this moment that when I talk about my sadness, I go back into the vicious cycle of morbid feelings. i dunnoe, i'm not being very coherent in this entry, basically because my feelings are awfully mixed. ahhh... fuck, consultation is in 2 hours time, and i have nothing to show. basically because i don't have a camera. lille should fucking consider the poorer students that not many of us can't afford a camera to do her fucking assignments. i'm so angry about this that i have to say that I really detest her teaching. does she even understand that there are certain limits to every student's financial capability or mental capacity? ugh fuck. i'm going to school with a black face now. and hear her ramble and digress on and on. 3 comments 6:53 AM-------- <3
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