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This is Eric and I am really not very interesting.Saturday, February 28, 2009
hi all. horidays!
Hi this is Pandora. with her screwed up breast.
i'm eating an apple.
because of my bad planning skeelz the last min dinner at 85 was cancelled, i highly believe it's not my fault and im slightly annoyed. because im hungry now.
i'm just too suay that ppl cant make it and its raining like mad now.
oh and my block is finally over but it just had to end on a very sour note.
Ytd was pretty horrible because The Lecturer didn't like my final painting which made me slightly disappointed, but the more irritating part is when she said something like I need to adhere more to the style of my artistic reference WHEN SHE WAS THE ONE WHO ASKED ME NOT TO COPY TOO MUCH OF MY REFERENCE ARTIST'S STYLE DURING CONSULTATION.
HELLO.
That made me a little mad so the whole time I wasn't really registering what she was saying. I was just defending my art like crazy and you know it's impossible to please that woman.
What Zaihan said about the imperfection of my work was correct, and I ought to bear in mind his criticism, while what The Lecturer said is half the time bullshitting, the other half contradiction which is also bullshit.
Z.
I personally think that the painting is definitely rushed and some parts of the painting is weird (YES I AGREE WITH YOU MISS THE LECTURER), LOL. BUT HELLO, THIS IS MY FIRST FUCKING TIME PAINTING ON SUCH A BIG CANVAS, SO SHOW SOME LOVE YO. I believe it's every one's first time too.
So most of the time, her criticism was based on what she don't like about the painting and with almost no hint of pride for her student's work.
WAH ANGRY AH. AND SHE ASKED US TO GO AND RE-PAINT IT FOR MARKING ON MONDAY. WAH CRAZY. U GO PAINT URSELF LA.
So after the critic I totally sunk into bouts of depression and angst and was ranting like a mad person. What she left me was insecurity of my own competence and a high percentage of anger.
Reason being I wasn't satisfied with my own rushed work and I was shot down by The Lecturer for being seemingly incompetent.
Gerrit, I was feeling lousy all the time. I don't like ah, being questioned of my competence. If I were given more time, I promise I will paint it better than it is now. And no, it is not an excuse for my lousy work, it's a conviction that I will do better if I was not rushed. The background is nice right, because I was taking my own sweet time to paint, haha, because I painted it first.
I promise myself that I will paint another Pandora in the near future. On my own pace and time. Then I will hang on my bedroom for a few months (and not masturbate to it) and sell it to worthy art buyers for a few million.
Kidding.
No, I'm not kidding about the re-painting part, I will repaint on my own accord, and for my own personal purpose, not for stupid 2D art fundamental submission which is a module that I currently detests now out of so many other modules.
What's done is done for 2D shit, and I'm so glad I'm advancing on to year 2 and I hope I won't face you again, Miss The Lecturer. If I do, I make sure my work will knock your socks off. Like how it did for my Visual Presentation book illustration.
I won't claim this setback as a failure because I know that if I suck at something, I will improve. :D
I dreamt that I was shouting at The Lecturer in the studio and she is telling me that she don't like me in my face.
Wow, not like I like you in reality.
Maybe I really don't like her which resulted in my angsty response to her criticism to my work. But, who cares, if you were a nicer lecturer and a more competent one, I might respect you more than I do now.
Btw, I am proud of my painting despite of all its imperfections. Ha, you won't bring me down.
A student complains about the teacher= Probably the student's fault
Whole class or entire level of students bitching about the teacher= She should quit or totally change her outlook in life and probably how to treat students with appreciation.
Oh, btw,
UGLY BREASTS FOR THE WIN.
OH BTW, THANKS AMANDA FOR PUTTING UP WITH MY RANT AND PEI-ING ME TO EAT LUNCH, I LOVE YOU MUCH. :D
Without you my life after class would be very dark and bleak. THANKS MY FRIEND!
btw btw, the white dot below the breast is mervin's jizz.
LOL.
Labels: rants, reflection, traditional art
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Thursday, February 26, 2009
I believe
If you set yourself out to do something you have never done before and believe you'll do well, you will excel.
I dunnoe, this always works.
ALWAYS!!!!
It works like a charm for me. Each time I believed, and achieved, my esteem goes up a knot higher.
So as your esteem goes up, you'll believe in greater things that you are capable of achieving. Then you'll get it, and the cycle goes on. Gerrit?
Never know when I'll meet failure with this formula, but when I fail, I'll tell you all ok.
Now, I'm going to continue believing that I'll do well in my 1mx1m painting. It's getting irritating ah. Especially when i screwed up Pandora's skin and her breasts.
Labels: daily musings
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Monday, February 23, 2009
alive la
hi, my armpits smell quite nice coz I just bathed.
They smell so nice that butterflies are fluttering gaily around me, intoxicated by my wonderful scent.
Anyway, just to report that I didn't die, I just had alot of shit to do for 2D art fund and thank God I'm left with 1 more week to DUA HOLIDAYS~
But I'm sadly left with a 1m by 1m painting to be submitted by Friday. And I am abit retarded to choose Audrey Kawasaki as my reference artist.
NEVER DIE BEFORE.
I am veh hong gan because I'm drawing a nude portraiture. Yay, anyone from TP next time come across this painting with 2 big neh nehs flashing across the canvas sheet, it is mine. CHANKS. LOL. I need to learn to be less crude and respect the female body.
Ahem. Check it out soon.
It's still in the development process, I swear I need to paint it well, if not I'll just kill myself ha.
Btw, I chose Pandora's Box as my topic because the project's theme is damn lame, it's STORY TIME. double u tee eff?
Hence, for the sake of not conforming to the usual lame fairy tale ideas, I'm going to paint a greek myth!
How exciting.
Anyway, I spent the whole of yesterday watercolouring (stupid flower exercise) and re-painting my Marilyn Monroe portraiture for folio submission. I THINK I PAINTED BETTER THAN I DID THE PREVIOUS TIME! Haha, maybe coz I scaled the portrait down so it's easier to paint.
LOL, the biggest one is the one I painted months ago.
Hi Flower. LOL, of which I copied from a watercolour book.
I need to get myself new bottles of contact lens solution, it's running dry. Bleah.
Okay, I have nothing more interesting to blog about, maybe will update soon. After this week... YAYYYY HORRRRIIIIDAYYYY!!!!
Labels: tp design, traditional art, visual comm
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Thursday, February 19, 2009
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CANDY!
Haha, I hope you like what we did for you. HAHAHAA!
Happy 18th la Candy!!!
Stay happy and strong always, k!
Love you, <3
Haha, after this busy period I will blog about all the birthday parties okay!!!!
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On a completely unrelated note, I have to complete by tomorrow:
Composition sketching for Final Painting, go and consult in school if possible.
Half of the stupid animal colour scheme painting.
Sketch tshirt drafts for Amos by 4pm.
Meet Farhana for a photog reshoot.
Eric, GO!
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Friday, February 13, 2009
Hey baby.
On this day, my friends, I turn 18.
It is a feat to be able to live thus old.
Many faced death even before 18 and I am grateful that I'm in a healthy body and mind to stand before you and deliver this post.
Today, at 00:00, I spent my birthday countdown with a family of not my own, and it was my best birthday celebration in many many years. I was with Farhana and her Mummy, and it all turned out to be amazingly heartwarming.
It was a small and unplanned celebration because I was at Farhana's house doing a last minute photoshoot with her (for mathias' assignment la), and I stayed till midnight and they decided to celebrate my birthday with a small chocolate cupcake. We had on masquerade masks too! HAHA. (Okay la, they are props for my photoshoot... but still can use right. HAHAHA)
It was only a good friend and her mother during the celebration and it was exactly what I wished for. A peaceful birthday.
God's grace is amazing.
:D
I really enjoyed the time spent, thanks Farhana! I love you loads.
I be going to FT for the first time in 2009, and I want to run to God's embrace and tell Him 'I love you"!
Ok, good night, I shall go to sleep and not be late for class. :D
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ERIC!
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Monday, February 9, 2009
Little India!
Hey, feels good to have slept since the evening time.
I'm doing my leaves sketching now (yet again), and taking some time off to blog about my excursion with class and Mathias today.
Mathias is my photography lecturer and I think he is damn cool. haha.
http://www.mathiasheng.com/
I got a feeling that Mathias' teaching will carry me through all my years as a designer because I really feel that I learnt many things (from his technical guidance and his spirit as a photographer), even for only a week's worth of lessons.
Okay anyway, the class met up at 10, 10.30 to be exact coz Jolyn was late. LOL. And we're on our way for our photoshoot.
I have never observed so much in my life, especially in Little India. Haha. It got to a point whereby I was so engrossed I looked everything from a point of view of a viewfinder. I felt so surreal like I was in another realm. HAHA. NO KID. Christina agreed too
Hi pawnshop.
At an Indian Temple
OMGOMGOMG, a pool of hungry pigeons. YOU KNOW THIS LAO UNCLE GO AND SCATTERED FOOD ON THE FLOOR AND ALL THE PIGEONS FROM ALL OVER LITTLE INDIA ALL CONGREGATED AROUND THE SPOT AND FOUGHT FOR FOOD.
omg, the scene is traumatising, because we're all scared of birdshit. But our photog instincts (which is no instinct, LOL), lured us near the colony and Christina and I started taking pictures of the birds.
You know Chrisitna damn poorthing coz her camera no zoom lens, and she had to go reeeeeal close to the pigeons. LO BEHOLD, WAH LAH! THE PIGEONS ALLLLL FLEW TO OUR DIRECTION AND WE'RE ALL RUNNING AWAY FOR OUR DEAR LIVES. HAHAHAHA EXHILIRATING.
Anyway, I regret not taking the last shot before I run cos the pigeon were all damn hiong looking and murderous. Good enough to form a nice shot. LOL, SIAN. U know this is like our first national geographic-ish experience to get chased by wildanimals. LOL, except the pros get chased by elephants la.
omg so loser, get chased by pigeons.
Oh, and Christina was very Hong Gan, she go and provoked a siao black dog who was barking like siao at us. WAH DAMN HAPPENING, I tot he's gonna chiong to Christina and bite her head off.
Haha, anyway. Continuing.
omg, the scene is traumatising, because we're all scared of birdshit. But our photog instincts (which is no instinct, LOL), lured us near the colony and Christina and I started taking pictures of the birds.
You know Chrisitna damn poorthing coz her camera no zoom lens, and she had to go reeeeeal close to the pigeons. LO BEHOLD, WAH LAH! THE PIGEONS ALLLLL FLEW TO OUR DIRECTION AND WE'RE ALL RUNNING AWAY FOR OUR DEAR LIVES. HAHAHAHA EXHILIRATING.
Anyway, I regret not taking the last shot before I run cos the pigeon were all damn hiong looking and murderous. Good enough to form a nice shot. LOL, SIAN. U know this is like our first national geographic-ish experience to get chased by wildanimals. LOL, except the pros get chased by elephants la.
omg so loser, get chased by pigeons.
Oh, and Christina was very Hong Gan, she go and provoked a siao black dog who was barking like siao at us. WAH DAMN HAPPENING, I tot he's gonna chiong to Christina and bite her head off.
Haha, anyway. Continuing.
Uncle who repairs motorcycle. I think he has soulful eyes. lol. I wish I framed a little more properly.
This is a Christina the short.
Okay, not posting the rest up, I gotta chiong work.
We left for Hougang and settled our lunch at Ajisen Ramen, to somehow reward ourselves from a day of hardwork. :D
AND ALSO TO BU CHANG THE LOUSY LUNCH WE HAD AT SOME STUPID CORNER OF LITTLE INDIA. WAH THE FOOD IS LIKE SHIT AND IT COSTED 4 dollars per person?!?!?1 WAD FUCK, but Mathias (who was eating with a small group of us) was generous enough to pay for our very very sucky meal. THANK YOU! Somehow, there's a new found esteem for Mathias. HAHA, cos he shared with us his journalism experience in some backward country and he told us he was served food with cockroaches crawling across the food.
Oh man.
Thank God for all that we have. The food, the aircon, the clean clothes, I 感恩。
Okay bye.
AND ALSO TO BU CHANG THE LOUSY LUNCH WE HAD AT SOME STUPID CORNER OF LITTLE INDIA. WAH THE FOOD IS LIKE SHIT AND IT COSTED 4 dollars per person?!?!?1 WAD FUCK, but Mathias (who was eating with a small group of us) was generous enough to pay for our very very sucky meal. THANK YOU! Somehow, there's a new found esteem for Mathias. HAHA, cos he shared with us his journalism experience in some backward country and he told us he was served food with cockroaches crawling across the food.
Oh man.
Thank God for all that we have. The food, the aircon, the clean clothes, I 感恩。
Okay bye.
If you are interested to see how does my new desk look like.
It's really really in a hot mess, I feel proud of myself.
Labels: day out, happy, tp design, visual comm
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Sunday, February 8, 2009
Incase you are wondering.
This is what I am doing the past few days.
I think I reached nirvana already.
Labels: tp design, traditional art, visual comm
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Saturday, February 7, 2009
DPA PPP II, school and irritatants.
hi my fwiends.
ok, I have the urge now to say that I love my fwiends alot alot. You guys mean the world to me and I am really fortunate though I must say that I haven't been a good friend since a long time ago. The trasitory period from 08 to 09, I have been blessed with plenty of time to reflect on my yearly journey and I am really thankful for all that I've gained (and lost).
Today I met up with my old DPA mates and man, it feels like we are close friends all over again. The familarity, and oddly, the freshness of meeting my fellow friends brought back nostaligia and happiness for me.
Friends whom I have not talked to since a long time ago made entrances to my life once again and people whom I never thought I would interact with surprised me with their enthusiasm and openness when they talked to me today.
It feels like we have grown significantly much.
I am really amazed by how much effort the IG has put in for today's PPP programme. We really grew. Though some has taken the back seat upon graduating from PPP, I'm still quite pleased that most of us offered to help the sophomore batch of the DPA students in participating in the event.
I hope my introduction speech was helpful for the new people, because I am sincerely grateful for the opportunity to be in DPA and I'm proud to watch ourselves grow in such good light since day 1 2008!
I wasn't there for about half of the programme today so I can't judge how effective was day 1, but we should give props to Cheryl and Ken who worked so fervently hard for the sake of one simple reason: letting our existing ties bind even stronger.
Forget about the stupid icebreakers, forget about the games, forget about the lousy food (LOL), forget about brainless cheers, forget about who leads who, we are bound closely not by the name DPA and its activities, we are bound because we love one another an enjoy each other's company.
To those whom I haven't got the chance to talk to yet, please give be patient while I gather my courage to talk to you. I don't bite. :D HAHAHAHA. OMG. I really look forward to be better mates with all of you. Though its hard, I'll try. :D
Anyway, some unpleasant things happened because of the immense stress and weariness many of us are experiencing. I believe respect should be above everything in terms of communication and the yardstick for good leadership is also respect and conviction from peers.
Isn't it an irony to feel powerful with people under your command and at the same time feign a desirable front to be non-chalent about being in the position of authority?
I know, it's not for me to judge but many a times, I'm put off by contradiction made by people who claims this and does the other. (maybe I do, but i don't see it as MY problem in this issue.)
It doesn't matter how much hardwork you have put in personally behind closed curtains, but it's the hardwork to maintain trust, commitment and friendliness in an organisation that define good leadership.
Having said that, the tactless remarks made for the DPAIG (intentionally or otherwise) has created a camouflaged disconcertment in most of our hearts which I don't think is healthy at all.
To instruct doesn't equate to demand, it just feels weird when we are put in a predicament such that we are obliged to be obeying whatever that is set out for us to do.
Commitment issues aside, it is based on mutual trust that really brings the DPAIG together, not just the said expectation of a being a leader and the desire to be on top of one another.
ok, bye im done ranting. see you in a bit, i shall end abruptly here and go to catch my sleep.
ps/ oh, IM WITH YINGSTER AND IZAK FOR DAY 2 STATION GAME FOR FOC PROGRAMME AGAIN! We're prolly the only group unaffected by the reshuffling of duties. so it's a yay, because i enjoy working with them. My day 1 and day 3 mates are equally fun luh. yay. oh, i'm going to push izak into the pool on day 3, *grins*.
programmers <3
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