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Monday, March 2, 2009 HAHA! http://www.weffriddles.com PLAY IT! ITS DAMN FUN, :D:D:D:D I was back from bbt session with Farhana and Christina. That shortie (affectionately) left early, leaving only Farhana and I. Had a really nice talk with Farhana and I felt a sense of relieve and affection for being able to share my mind with a worthy friend. It's been long people start hearing what I have to say and not treat me like an airhead. LOL, woops. Usually when I talk, people don't take me seriously, it's hard sometimes you know, to realise that people don't give a hoot of what you think. I guess it is really important to be important in the lives of the people you place in high esteem. It makes you feel needed. We were discussing about our current direction in life and how regretful we are towards our past. My answer: I never regret living my life thus far. I am happy to live my life again if I've a choice to or otherwise. I don't have a screwed up family, I don't grow up in a sleazy and erratic environment, I don't have to face people who thinks they own my life, I don't have to worry about my meals and what I need to grow as a person, everything is set in place properly for me. Most importantly, I have a strong sense of groundedness in whatever I set out to do, there is no room for bad influence in my life. I am thankful for that. I was telling Farhana that my life has somehow reached its peak and I can't seem to raise my bar any further. At some point in time I really felt stagnant, like everything I do, I just feel like, oh, that's all? Haha, and I was telling my friends that I feel like I'm ready to die, and Heaven can just take my life because I really have little regrets for whatever I have done to my life so far. Maybe some, but I am so comfortable and accomplished in my zone now that I feel like, enough, God take me. Then I was sharing my peeve about feeling so obliged to be part of a circle of friends that I lose myself in the company. I enjoy company, but it's definitely not ALLLL that important to me, in my life. I made a pact to myself that I will only keep worthy friends. Friends who I think will last me through my life and not judge me for who I am and what I want to be. I am a strong person, I will do what I think is important for me and this somehow annoys people, I think. Still, at the end of the day, what do I get if I conform to what people expect of me? Recognition? Everlasting friendship? 100 thousand dollars contract with covergirl magazine? (LOL, SORRY, TOO MUCH ANTM FROM YOUTUBE). Aiyah, it all boils down to what I want from my life, not what you want from me. I took a risk in secondary school, to evolved into someone who is strong and has a mind of his own. Then I took another risk to engage myself with life-long skills as a headprefect of the school. Then I took a chance to be in DPA, trying to prove my aptitude for the field in Designs and Arts. I admit I didn't totally own them all, but I feel satisfied with all these milestones of my life. Then, what comes next? Being noted for nailing every subject in school? Being a social butterfly, joining cliques and cliques of cool and happening people, attending breakfast, lunch, dinner, supper, chalets, sleepovers, camps? Taking my leadership skills to a higher level? Or just to be any ordinary students coming to school everyday and striving for a better result in our artistic endeavour? You get it? I feel so lost in all these obligations that I lose my ground sometimes. Give me a break man, for once I don't feel like I needed all these because my calling is not to please other people, but to be proud of whatever I do. Whether I did it well or not, I don't wanna be regretful of my choices for they have their consequences. (wah, adam khoo). You gerrit? Screw it, Presenting to you, Thats me btw, not on the wheelchair, or anyone in the background. Hah. To whoever I've let down or disappointed, screw you, i don't regret it. HAHAHA. wah siol, so attitude. oh btw, FARHANA, I WISH YOU LUCK, GOOD LUCK LOVELY! 3 comments 1:06 AM-------- <3
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